Took a ride in DPC again, quite a big mistake because I've almost spend 2 hours in the traffic while traveling to the park.

Today's result is not as good as the previous time, only manage to ride for 10 km while the previous record is 12 km. I think the reason of this is because of me trying to ride faster. It gets me to move my muscles harder, of course it is more tiring as well. However, there are more bikers as compared to last time I came here, some seems professional, some is just normal bikers. They do give me motivation to ride on whenever I feel like stopping, though I've never manage to over-cut any of the bikers today. I tell myself that this is nothing to be shame of, this is just me second time here. I can do better! Hahaha.

I thought I will be having a sober mind when I wake up today... Shed some tears again, stupid me...

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Spend the whole afternoon and evening with my brothers. I kinda miss them because we have not met for at least 6 months. We've spent our time talking a lot about recent life and our past memories. I'm quite happy for all of them. Some of them do well in their studies, some not; some earned quite some money, some just okay; some used to be a DoTA addict, have not touched the game for almost half a year! Things are getting unbelievable these days don't you think so? I'm glad they have a good life, though I've not been reported about any bad things from them, hope they are as good as they said.

The good thing is, spending time with them do helps to sooth my emotions. Not forgetting the shopping spree that I've been today. Tried hard to control myself, but still, I spent around 350 dollars for the goods. I feel quite happy about it, rather than feeling guilty on the spendings. Looks like the saying of "shopping release stress" doesn't only works on women.

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I hope we could spend all these happy times together. Even we are not, I sincerely wish she can be happy doing whatever she's doing...

Went to DPC for a ride today. It was a sudden decision, and I've not regretted it.

I've never done this before, this is my first time on the bike alone. It feels quite good actually, just me, and the wind. I've cycle and cycle, feeling the swift and the breeze, just to forget everything temporarily. For that 2 hours in the park, I'm mind free, just like I've release myself for a prison that lies so deep in my heart. I really like to do this again someday.


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On my way home, I saw the bright moon on the sky. I swear it is the brightest and the biggest moon I've ever seen. It is so beautiful and it makes me think of her. But this time, I don't feel sad about it. I wish, she can see this moon as well, I wish she can enjoy this magnificent scenery as I do...

Throwing all my emo stuff into the Piggie bank you used to give me...