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Oh well, I don't feel like studying anymore. Looks like I need motivation. Frankly speaking, Doing it is not hard, but I wonder is the examiner is hardworking enough to let me score... I can't screw this.

Round 2: Biology

This is very awkward. I've try to study every chapter since morning. The conclusion I get is the more I study the more I realize, I don't know everything. Every corner from the text can be twisted and modified to be a question. And what's more fearful is, I can't even answer question from the past year without referring to the book. Am I doomed? It looks like I've having some kinda of internal stress. A stress that is not visible nor sensible, it is deep inside and you don't feel it. They say that sometimes you should release stress play playing computers. However, what in turn is not releasing it, but adding it, with a little bit of fear and guilt. Looks like it doesn't help... Now, I decide to stop studying and get a good rest. I'm not a smart person and I'm not hard working either but I'm not giving up..

What the fuck!

There's 15 more days to STPM, but the thing is OI still can be so relax now. What nerve has gone wrong in me?! I still remember during my UPSR, I can be so paranoid 3 months before it; PMR 2 months; SPM 1 month; so how bout STPM? Is time to wake up already... ---------- So now, Pray hard to GOD, please gimme CGPA 3.50 above, I believe I can get it sience I want to get it so much. STPM, here I come!=)

13/8

Phone update at mcD. First day of deactivating my facebook account; And now there's wifi availability, I just cant wait to reactivate it to online, but I must control myself!

Only band 4... Heartache

Past vs Present

It is rarely for a person like me to wake up early during a school break. So what actually drive me to be so discipline today? It is definitely gotta relate to a date with an ex-Victorian (teacher).

It was 9.15 in the morning, where I reached Cheras Leisure Mall the way from my home by LRT and then the RapidKL bus. Since it's my very first time to interview an ex-Victorian, I don't hope to be late, but perhaps it is too early for the shopping complex to open. So, I have to wonder around Taman Segar shop lots without choice. Then I met Han Ming and his father, went to a mamak stall with him until 10am. Then met Mr Loh Kung Sing at Leisure Mall's Old Town White Coffee.

The interview of Mr Loh started with Han Ming, Kian Wee and I. So we've talk around 2 hours and it was really a great interview. How great? Mr Loh really inspired me with his ideas and past experiences as a teacher, a principle and also a father of a true Victorian, Loh Kok Kin.

I would really like to share his words with everyone but it is really a long story.

My favourite phrase from Mr Loh:

"There are 2 types of Victorian, one treat his school like his HOME and the another one treat his school just like a HOTEL"

Think about it my brothers. =)

Am I being sensitive or I'm just think too much. I think it started to have distance between us. =/

bon voyage

I hate to go KLIA especially when I'm not the one that has the chance to be on the plane. Looking at other people having their luggage with the smile on their face can really turn me to a green eye monster. =( But, bon voyage and enjoy your trip, mum. =)

DSLR lens = Binoculars!

Basically, the second day of holiday is better. After a wake up call from Han Ming then I jump to my computer desk straight for a update from the net. Kinda lifeless huh? But this seems to be the best thing to do in home. Anyway, that call is not exactly a wake up call, he asked me to find out the 1st girl who admitted to VI. So I did.

12.45 is the time I reached B.Timesquare. Fix my watch then go straight to Secret Recipe, where I met my dear board members. Particularly, that's no real reason for that meeting, the reason might be coming out for a meeting to know the progress of each departments and discuss about further plans. However, it can be a good way to strengthen the bond between us after a long period of facing our text books and test papers. You see, it's vital to have more communication with them for the sake of the magazine production, although the board is not only about magazine after-all...

Okay, the meeting ended up chit-chat with each other, some of them is absent so is hard for me to really discuss everything according to what I have planned.

Hopefully your family members will be always healthy. I don't want it to stop you from doing your duty.

School break

This is my first day of holiday, which suppose to mean that I'll be quite relax. Well, I did relax and have a chance to sleep until 11 o'clock. That's great isn't it? Who knows at the rest of the day I might just spend my time facing the monitor screen. I'm having headache now because of that, the day is not really relaxing after-all... I failed my only plan today which is going to attend maths class at 6pm. The reason, they've changed the time 2 hours before and I didn't know that. Damn it. But, it's not something sad after all. I met her after knew that the class was cancel. Then, we had a tea break in A&W before heading back to SS LRT station where later on went to her house to get my very very belated birthday present. You know, a great gift like this, it's really something precious. :-) Anyway, I realized I haven't start any of my revision yet. Hopefully I'll start it as soon as possible. We know, our exam will never be over before December 2010...

Just lovin' it. =)

All or none

Let see, I finish my Maths paper in less than 1 hour, skipped 5 out of 12 question, the others don't even dare to confirm gonna be 100% correct. Oh my god, hopefully is not too late to study.

My 4.00 dream... Getting further away from me. =(

Anyway, anyone interested to go Melacca? 31st of July, 3 days 2 night, less than RM150 please gimme a reply on Facebook.

kenangan terindah

Listen to this song, it recalls me of my VEB orientation. We're forced to present this song to a birthday girl in the board.

Good old memories...

Hehe

If it's in facebook, I'll like to be come a fan of" You get all the right thoughts and inspirations during your bath."

Digging the details of what revolving around you, but never look at the center of everything. Just like those scientist so curious to know about the universe but there're so many things undiscovered on Earth.

Okay, I'm gonna head for my job now. =)

Yay

Give me a second, I'm thinking of how to start an introduction for this post...

Okay, here it goes.

"Lesson learned today, try to be straight forward in a conversation."So let us be straight forward.

I'm having a mood swing and I'm really depressed. Due to certain reasons and perhaps, it is actually my own problem. Not showing on my face but hide deeply in my heart. You see, I'm trying to find a person to share my problem but couldn't find one. So sad isn't it? Don't dare to find a single person to discuss, not even her. (sorry)

Generally, few things have distracted me from what I suppose to focus on. Then, when I try so hard to focus one thing, troubles will be here knocking my door, not a friendly visit...

But hey! This make sense isn't it? The reason why I willing to come back to my page and post an update now. Yeah, I'm trying to pour everything from my mind to this post, since it's fully loaded and I can't think anymore.

Seriously, I wanted to yell and scream and shout... ...

"Dude, you're having a grammatical error here! Scream, yell and shout is having the same meaning, it's repetition!" Shut it! From grammar to paragraph planning; from speaking to writing; from thinking mature to think as much points as possible; look! It's fucking annoying! Go away MUET!

Sigh, I know it's hard, I never did any practice at home, and I know the exam is coming soon within 20 days. My target is band 5, but I got no confident... [It's sad, I'm blaming no one but myself :'( ]

Tomorrow will be having a meeting with the school principal, the senior assistant of student welfare, the senior assistant of academic, the teacher advisors and the committee members.

So I've been told to invite them, to plan it and to make a presentation. No one tells me how and I don't bother asking anyone. So I send out the letters to the admin, asking one of my members to be the MC and I need to prepare a speech, ask the secretory to type letters and I'm going to make a presentation later. So what undone is; two of my MUET essay, revision for my subjects, study the chapter that MATHS T teacher don't plan to teach. Then, izzit my fault of not asking people to help me or I dare not ask people to help me? Well, absolutely yes.

Yesterday I was trying to prepare for my presentation. I ask Miss Sec. to send me the Gantt chart. Know what? I'm surprised. Very surprised and pissed off too. For this month, the last month as well, I did nothing! Total out of track. The progress of the magazine is not really starting you see, we got no sponsor yet, I'm not sure how many reports we did, I'm not sure the progress of graphic, I'm not sure the progress of photography too since there're still some photos we left last year is not distribute yet, for literary... I trust him but I don't know his workloads, his progress, he said Ren Pei will help me then nothing happen, and we got a 1st Editor that so far contribute nothing to the board. Why I don't bother to ask them? I'm the Editor-In-Chief! Whack me anyone, please whack me...

...

This week is totally random and distracting. Yesterday I saw one taxi driver threatening a Unser driver with something on his hand. Then today I saw a woman shouting like no bodies' business in Maluri LRT station , seems like she trying to scold everyone with a Chinese dialect that I don't understand. What is happening to this world?!

Then today I was discussing a topic with my friend on how to die without suffering. The conclusion is none or rarely. See, we're trapped in this world and no where to escape unless willing to pay the price. (I wonder why I have the thought of going to die)

God, I've gone crazy!

... I got no mood already, my laptop was habing a problem now. I think the Windows has corrupted.

... So MUCH things to do but so little time.

... Sigh. Somehow, I've devoured by my emotions now. =(

... I'm tired. I wish for a one day off. Not doing anything else and rest...

... Sorry my readers, I'm not emotionally unstable and I have high EQ. Don't get me wrong about this post. Look at my 2nd paragraph, I'm being straight forward, straight from my heart. =)

Last phrase. "Opps! I think this post is more than 600 words! As much as the words required for a Band 6 MUET essay!" (everything is muet, muet and muet for this moment)

You know what... I confirm will be a

MUET BAND SIX

and

STPM 4.00

student. Band 6 band 6 band 6.... 4A 4A 4A.... They say it's Law of Attraction.

The more you believe the more you approach or achieve it. So yes, I believe i will. =)

the Fear

25th February 2010, the STPM 2009 results has finally released. Lucky to know that is not my turn to get the result, but unlucky when realising that I'm gonna sit for the exam by the end of this year. 3.91, the highest score in science stream this year in VI. 4.00? The arts always have the chance to get it. Even though I've dropped physics so I can focus on my major Biology and to score a better result, but from this day on I started to become doubtful of my own abilities to get at least 3.50. So what advice from my seniors? Reject the norm of "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy", for my future, I've to be dull...

chor 7

Predicted... At last I've sick during Chinese new year. I think I got a flu, believing I'm still okay, no fever. So any friends out there please take care of your health while enjoying your holidays! Gong Xi Fa Caii! Happy Gambling...

Greetings

To fellow friends,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! | GONG XI FA CAII!

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&

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

<3

7 wishes for my new year~!

1. 1. Score well in STPM! (as well as trial)

2. 2. Escape from my own financial crisis.

3. 3. More time to spend with friends, hoping to meet more friends too.

4. 4. Stay healthy. =)

5. 5. Get my school mag done by September. And, hope to have more members in the board.

6. 6. Score well in MUET!!! (At least have band 4 or 5)

7. 7. Whatever izzit… I want to be happy all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got a feeling.... That this year gonna be a good year.

"Wait wait! You mean you've just reach 18 and you feel good about it because you're an officially adult? Dude, wake up! We're 19 now..."

God knows why the time passes so fast nowadays... Before this I was still thinking about celebrating someone's 18th birthday and in the blink of an eye, it is 2010!

But to be frank, I do appreciate year 2009 for the memories, even though the whole year is a total mess. =p

Okay, enough with the nonsense, I just want to finish my post quickly and go to sleep again... I'm fucking exhausted right now.

I'll start with 1st of January 2009....

Guess where I did my countdown last year? You’ll never expect it to be at… a hospital. It is a sad thing you see, I’m in the ward during the 1^st day of the year, very bad…

Okay, this one of the picture I taken in the ward. (I’m the photographer so of course u can’t see me…)

The healing process of the wound takes time and I’m unable to leave my house so for few weeks I’ve never leave my house… Then next it is already Chinese New Year, I can say that the year of Ox is really tough…

This is my visit to Pui Ying’s House. (Eugene, Terence and James playing Chinese chess during CNY. LOL)

And this one is Yen yee’s house…

Have our annual CNY dinner in a restaurant nearby Yi Theng’s house. (Look at the “yee sangs”, I miss them…)

The following month is… February!

Think of February, think of 14^th, and it’s Valentine!

And we’re celebrating “singletine” that day in Genting. =)

(tagging: Me, Wai Xiang, Terence, Chi Leong, Pui Ying, James and Hazel)*

Besides that, I don’t think there is any big events are happening on that month, for me.

So for March, Wow, wow! This is one significant month for the year! Still it is for me.

For the 1^st half of the month, (hehehe…) you know what is that, it’s SPM! It’s really chaotic for all SPM candidates for 2008. I was having nightmares about getting bad results or weird results (I took more subjects? LOL) during the week before I getting my SPM results. But I can say that was just the beginning of my nightmare…

An outing after getting my result, hehehe…

Look at this! My 1^st guitar and it will be broken after 3 months.

And…

24^th March 2008. The day for two of us. <3

Then… This is an outing which surpassingly to celebrate Wx’s birthday but he unable to come. So we celebrated his birthday later.

So April starts,

This is Wx’s belated birthday celebration

And… this is my certificate for French beginner class. (I got an A! =D)

22^nd of Apirl, my birthday cake. =)

And celebrated with Pui Yan at Yaki-yaki.

Then for May, we have a trip to Tioman.

Unfortunately for this post I can’t get any photo from my phone so that’s it.

Well, for this trip, I’m lovin’ it. =)

(tagging: Me, Pui Yan, Audrey, Yen yee, Pui Ying, Wai Xiang, Ching Hong, Chee Hoe, Jeffrey and Jeremy)*

And a week after that is the intake for lower six…

A K-session after school.

This is relay for life, I’ve forgotten the purpose f this event but I know we need to run. xD

For June there are not much thing to talk about… But I have some photos here…

School…

Then a “farewell” for the intec-ian…

Then a birthday party for dunno who in Kaki’s Korner

Then for July, I only have photos for Cheer Comp and this OO-nite in TarC

After that is August, (do you realize my crap is getting lesser and lesser? Cause I already pancit right now…)

Errrr, A-nite loh…

Then, Hazel’s Birthday Party…

For September! Please refer to my previous post. xD

…Skip…

October! Errrr… Skip also, since it’s all about photo please refer to my Facebook profile, for November too. Not much events just some outings every week since most of them finish their exams and having holidays.

So finally…….

31^st of December 2009! Wow, so fast from 1^st of Januray until 31^st of December. I like this post man! xD

We have our celebration in Genting Highland. Have our countdown and bowling session until 2 sth then back to Pui Ying house.

So….

Before I end my post I would like to say….

“Happy New Year!!!

Hwattt ahhhh!!!” xD

Gui lai liao gui lai liao, sheng lai liao….

Si mi niam niam eh… Gin cao ahh… LOL