Okay, here it goes.
"Lesson learned today, try to be straight forward in a conversation."So let us be straight forward.
I'm having a mood swing and I'm really depressed. Due to certain reasons and perhaps, it is actually my own problem. Not showing on my face but hide deeply in my heart. You see, I'm trying to find a person to share my problem but couldn't find one. So sad isn't it? Don't dare to find a single person to discuss, not even her. (sorry)
Generally, few things have distracted me from what I suppose to focus on. Then, when I try so hard to focus one thing, troubles will be here knocking my door, not a friendly visit...
But hey! This make sense isn't it? The reason why I willing to come back to my page and post an update now. Yeah, I'm trying to pour everything from my mind to this post, since it's fully loaded and I can't think anymore.
Seriously, I wanted to yell and scream and shout... ...
"Dude, you're having a grammatical error here! Scream, yell and shout is having the same meaning, it's repetition!" Shut it! From grammar to paragraph planning; from speaking to writing; from thinking mature to think as much points as possible; look! It's fucking annoying! Go away MUET!
Sigh, I know it's hard, I never did any practice at home, and I know the exam is coming soon within 20 days. My target is band 5, but I got no confident... [It's sad, I'm blaming no one but myself :'( ]
Tomorrow will be having a meeting with the school principal, the senior assistant of student welfare, the senior assistant of academic, the teacher advisors and the committee members.
So I've been told to invite them, to plan it and to make a presentation. No one tells me how and I don't bother asking anyone. So I send out the letters to the admin, asking one of my members to be the MC and I need to prepare a speech, ask the secretory to type letters and I'm going to make a presentation later. So what undone is; two of my MUET essay, revision for my subjects, study the chapter that MATHS T teacher don't plan to teach. Then, izzit my fault of not asking people to help me or I dare not ask people to help me? Well, absolutely yes.
Yesterday I was trying to prepare for my presentation. I ask Miss Sec. to send me the Gantt chart. Know what? I'm surprised. Very surprised and pissed off too. For this month, the last month as well, I did nothing! Total out of track. The progress of the magazine is not really starting you see, we got no sponsor yet, I'm not sure how many reports we did, I'm not sure the progress of graphic, I'm not sure the progress of photography too since there're still some photos we left last year is not distribute yet, for literary... I trust him but I don't know his workloads, his progress, he said Ren Pei will help me then nothing happen, and we got a 1st Editor that so far contribute nothing to the board. Why I don't bother to ask them? I'm the Editor-In-Chief! Whack me anyone, please whack me...
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This week is totally random and distracting. Yesterday I saw one taxi driver threatening a Unser driver with something on his hand. Then today I saw a woman shouting like no bodies' business in Maluri LRT station , seems like she trying to scold everyone with a Chinese dialect that I don't understand. What is happening to this world?!
Then today I was discussing a topic with my friend on how to die without suffering. The conclusion is none or rarely. See, we're trapped in this world and no where to escape unless willing to pay the price. (I wonder why I have the thought of going to die)
God, I've gone crazy!
... I got no mood already, my laptop was habing a problem now. I think the Windows has corrupted.
... So MUCH things to do but so little time.
... Sigh. Somehow, I've devoured by my emotions now. =(
... I'm tired. I wish for a one day off. Not doing anything else and rest...
... Sorry my readers, I'm not emotionally unstable and I have high EQ. Don't get me wrong about this post. Look at my 2nd paragraph, I'm being straight forward, straight from my heart. =)
Last phrase. "Opps! I think this post is more than 600 words! As much as the words required for a Band 6 MUET essay!" (everything is muet, muet and muet for this moment)
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